Sometimes I wonder if I’m living my life the way I should. I know it’s confusing and strange for me to ask but … did I so something wrong? Or did God just know within Himself that I’m strong enough to handle the burden.
I’m thinking it’s the latter.
I try not to ask this question. It’s embarrassing for people (especially those I actually know.) to read about excerpts in my life I’m not exactly proud of. But sometimes, it just pops in my head … then I start to think … and when I think about it more and more … I start feeling the depression egging its way on me. It’s like it swallows me entirely and I can’t think of anything else but it. Then, it gets worse! I act upon it. Everybody around me would then actually see the manifestations of my depressive state. I get utterly grouchy to that point that I want everyone around me to be grouchy as well. Provoking them to be insanely LIVID so that I could get someone to shout at me to pull me back to reality.
I wish to rid of myself of this dreaded disease. If only I knew how….
So, can anyone refer me to a good shrink???
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